The Nothingness

Do you often feel like you are a sponge, soaking up other people's thoughts, emotions, feelings, and confusing them for your own? Have you ever done things like painting your walls a bizarre color and then wondering why you did that because you don't actually like the color, or feeling really happy or sad and you actually stop and think that you don't really know why you are feeling this way? Have you ever bought an outift you hated when you got home, or cut your hair in a way that was bizarre for you or , it goes on and on. What if the point is nothingness and we are close to the point and we are also almost nothingness and so that we don't disappear we cling to the patterns of the other minds, floating from one to another, exploring, but constantly moving...

some other strange stuff
Mood:  not sure
Topic: Other
another thing I forgot to add is last night before I went to bed I thought I saw a blue light move real fast in my sons room , I thought he had some kind of weird flash light and was flashing it around the room but then I realized that was ridiculous and I did look to see if he had a light but he didn't. I did the John Edwards tape about meeting your guides and angels when I went to bed last night. Today at work I thought I saw a shadow flyibng around the room, some really bizarre stuff.

fresh floodlight

strange morning
Topic: Other

I dreamt last night about some democrat thing I am a republican but every one who won in the dream was democrat ....:(

The dreams last night weren't so memorable but this morning was. I got up and went to work and it was really foggy out, I mean deadly foggy out. I got in my car and headed for work and I felt really strange for some reason., I drove by this house and the light on the outside was flicking off and on, which was strange. Then I pulled up to a light and there were tons of cars there which it was 4:30 am and there is hardly ever any cars there in the morning. I turned and started driving down the street and street lights started going out as I drove under them. I drove by this sign and the letters glowed this eery red, but then I remembered that this specific sign doesn't have red letters. I started to question if I was really awake or if maybe I was still dreaming. I got to work and I wonder if maybe it was a migraine aura because I started to get a headache. I'm still either..awake or maybe still stuck in a dream that I'm not lucid in yet....

Deja hoodoo merrily merrily merrily merrily nothing is what it seems
Mood:  lazy
Topic: Precognitive Dreams
This started out as a normal dream I guess, but then again, who knows when a precognitive dream is going to be one? It seems like it should have some kind of flavor or rhyme to it to make it understood that it is indeed a trip through time or so it seems. This morning I had a series of dreams but the one I remembered the most when I woke up was I was at work although it wasn't the way my shop is set up and it was break time. Me and this girl Annette went to the snack machine and something was stuck in the machine so we shook the machine and the bag of whatever fell. Then I opened the back of the machine and there was a bunch of loose change in there. I said "Annette! Look! Lets grab all this money!" she said "No, we can't , we should leave that for someone else" . So we did, and we went and sat down at a break table. Ok, now the strange part is that I never really take break with Annette and don't get to talk to her a whole lot anymore. I used to work next to her but I think I dreamt about her because I was going to look to see if there was a Mercury retrograde and she is always affected by them.

So...Today at work, I headed for the bathroom, I got to the aisle way and Annette started going to the bathroom too. I started telling her abou t the crazy dream and we got up by the snack machine and there was a guy there shaking the machine because something was stuck. We both start laughing because it was like the dream :), then we went into the bathroom, still laughing and talking about the coincidence with the dream and the guy shaking the machine and this girl said "Wow! That machine gave me money this morning".. hrmmmmm...that was a little strange. We were really laughing by now and then we got back to our table and someone was passing around a card to put money in for a sick coworker and I though Aha, there is the part of the dream where we give money to someone else!
Dreams are just bizarre sometimes!

my mood every day...
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Visuals

SOME DAYS IT'S JUST NOT WORTH CHEWING THROUGH THE LEATHER STRAPS!"

quote unknown..
image by Paul Booth

What is the frequency Kenneth?
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Waning crescent moon 42.7 % of Full -My moon day 1
Topic: Synchronicities
Ok, some strange things have been happening this week (i know, they always seem to be happening but this time I am writing them down!) First one is , a friend who I haven't heard from in years, I wrote her an email note asking her how she is doing and I haven't done that for ages and she wrote back and said she was just thinking about emailing me also. She lives in Europe and so that just goes to show that it is either a coincidence that means nothing, or the mind has limitless boundaries- that distance doesn't seem to affect it, in fact I don't think distance or space hinders the effects of telepathy at all because her and I have always had strong connections in that area it seems. Another thing that happened today was I thinking about that dream I had about Scott in prison and I thought to myself today that I was going to get bad news or correspondence from someone in the prison about him. I was kind of worried today but then when I got home was a little relieved because I did get a letter from the prison mailroom telling me that I sent some money the wrong way and they sent it back. I had to laugh a little because after I had the bad dream about him, I got worried and sent him some money and asked him to call me and let me know he was ok, so the money I sent was sort of atached to the dream so that must be why before I checked the mail today I was thinking about that dream again. sometimes I think it is going to take me a lifetime to figure out this stuff just one little bit and then just when I think I have it a little i will probably die and forget it all. Well, then, hopefully someone can make something out of these notes I guess. If I can't make sense of any of it, maybe someone else can. have a great day!

vegetarianism again
Mood:  hug me
Topic: Other
I wasn't going to write too much today but thought I would pop in here for a sec and write that I have been vegetarian again for 3 weeks. I don't know why I keep feeling like I need to be a vegetarian but sometimes I just can't stand the smell of cooking animals, it's kind of weird in a way. My blood pressure has dropped pretty low and I wonder if that has to do with my dreams being more lucid lately. I have never been a big meat eater but am not sure I can go competely without either because I have been so tired this last week. I would like to go a whole year or something though and see where my dreams would go after that long without eating meat. I read once that Einstein, who is one of my heroes, was a vegetarian his last year alive, and I keep wanting to go read some of the stuff he wrote that year to see if anything really changed because of it, but then again, why did he die after becoming one? I suppose we all die sometime. It seems like there is so much to do and we don't have enough time here to do it all...

Now you see it now you don't
Topic: False Awakenings

Last night I had a bunch of different dreams and I don't remember much except the one that I had right before I woke up...I dreamt that Scott was laying next to me in my bed and it felt so real. We weren't doing nothing except cuddling but I had my head all snuggled up to his chest and he had his arms wrapped around me and I was just so comfortable and happy. Then I woke up....and he was gone..I felt so empty and sad. I hate those dreams that are so fucken real then you wake up and they weren't real at all except in your pathetic little mind.. All I could think about when I woke up was that song "Please come to Boston"

Please Come To Boston Lyrics



Please come to Boston
For the springtime
I'm stayin' here with some friends
And they've got lots of room
You can sell your paintings on the sidewalk
By a cafe where I hope to be workin' soon
Please come to Boston
She said no, boy you come home to me

[Chorus:]
(And) She said, hey ramblin' boy
Why don't you settle down
(Boston, Denver, L.A.) ain't your kind of town
There ain't no gold
And there ain't nobody like me
I'm the number one fan
Of the man from Tennessee

Please come to Denver
To see the snowfall
We'll move up into the mountains
So far we can't be found
And throw I love you echos
Down the canyons
And then lie awake at night
Until they come back around
Please come to Denver
She said no boy you come home to me

[Repeat Chorus:]

Now that drifter's world
Goes round and round
And I doubt if it's ever gonna stop
But of all the dreams
I've lost or found
And all that I ain't got
I need somebody I can cling to
Somebody I can sing to

He said please come to L.A.
To live forever
A California life alone
Is just too hard to live
I live in a house that
Looks out over the ocean
And there's some stars
That fell from the sky
Livin' up on the hill
Please come to L.A.
I just said no
Boy, you come home to me

[Repeat Chorus]

I'm the number one fan
Of the band from Tennessee
Tennessee

Vision
Topic: Other


I had a vision yesterday about a tannish brown horse on a street , it was standing behind the little black curly haired baby that i dreamt about before I got pregnant with my youngest son. The little baby is kinda chubby and he has an apple on his head in the vision. the horse is looking at the apple like he wants to eat it but is containing himself. They are on a brick road with buildings around. The horse has an arrow in a bag on him.

symbolism says that the tannish horse may mean love or sex, and brown horses most likely mean mental pursuits. The apple may be knowledge or possibly temptation. The baby to me means innocence and since this particular baby has been connected to a precog dream before I wonder if it may have something to do with that. The arrow probably means manhood or something. any thoughts?

Hairy dreams
Topic: Regular Dreams
This has been a strange week for dreams because in at least two of them I have dreamt that I have unusually long hair is some strange places. I dreamt my pub hair was like 2 feet long and I had to cut it , lol , and then I dreamt that I had this hair on my face that was super long and I had to cut it, really gross stuff. I dreamt that me and my old boyfriend were having sex but not in the same dream, this is the second one in the last week of him and me., I can't remember any other ones for now but wanted to post what I could remember.