Knife in my back
Mood:  not sure
Topic: Regular Dreams
I hope this was a regular dream because it sort of scared me, here goes. I was outside getting out of a car, I'm not sure where I was but Scott from florida was standing there and so was our old friend Angie and we were just talking. They went inside this trailer and then somehow I ended up in the trailer and this guy had a knife stuck to my back. John was standing in front of me and he was trying to figure out how to get the knife away from the guy behind me and then I heard the guy behind me say "I'm gonna kill you like I killed your brother" and then I felt the knife go into my back and it was extremely real and vivid for just a normal dream..I dont know..it freaked me out and I woke up.

I didn't recognize the voice in the dream but it was sort of whispered in my ear. my brother did die in a car accident about 18 years ago but it was because he was drunk and trying to run from the police and ran a guard thing on the railroad track and got hit by a train. One thing this dream made me think of was my brother and I used to go down to this guys house and there was a guy there who did black magic or tried to raise demons in this circle thing. I never wanted anything to do with it but I later found out that the guy who did do that, died in a car accident not many years later, and so did my brother. I also heard another guy who went down there also died in a weird accident and when I was going down there quite a bit something also happened strange to me. I was about 15 and laying in my moms room on her bed talking to my boyfriend on the phone, I remember a song coming on the radio about the devil and then I sort of tranced out. My boyfriend said I told him I never wanted to speak to him again although we weren't fighting and I don't remember saying it. They found me nearly dead the next morning from an aspirin overdose, I took almost a whole bottle of 200 aspirins, when I got to the hospital they thought it was too late and gave me last rites. I don't recollect any of it and I always thought it had something to do with that guy who was doing those weird spells down there, like he accidently lost his demons or something and they followed me home. Well that dream last night made me think of that guy, Tad, and I was wondering what it would have to do with the trailer and Scott but then I remembered today that there was one time that I think Tad lived in a trailer and Scott and I went to his trailer, but I can't remember if it was Tad or not. What if it is him haunting me? Or what if it is that same demon still trying to kill me all these years later? Why or what would be the purpose?

baby girl ghost
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: computer buzz
Topic: Regular Dreams
Had a strange dream the other night. I dreamt I was in my old house, the haunted one where the upstairs caught on fire. I dreamt that I lived there again and there was this little baby girl who was maybe almost 2 there. I picked her up and held her and wondered where she came from and somehow I knew that she was a ghost, not a real child, but one that had died and was a ghost. But she was so real, and I rocked her and held her really close and then Jeff walked in. I asked him, what should we do? This is a ghost but she acts so real, we can't leave her here when we go to work should we get a sitter for her? but that seemed so odd because she was a ghost, we couldn't decide what to do. Jeff was working on something and I found an old newspaper that told the birthyear of the child and I saw her parents in the article but they were blurry and I kept trying to figure out who they were so I could tell them that their daughter was here with me and she seemed amazingly alive and solid for a ghost! The birth year was 1995. I left the dream rocking the child in my arms. When I woke up , I realized it must have been the baby I lost in 1994 that triggered the dream, it would have been Jeff's baby and if carried full term it would have been born in 1995. Old issues I guess..

Last night I kept dreaming I was on the computer and every time I tried to go to a webpage I ended up on the same webpage with a bunch of african people I think, that one country springs to mind, Zimbabwa or something like that??? I would try to switch to another page and it would go straight to that page and the people were dancing in the street or doing something in the street. I don't know, that one is hard to remember...it seemed more like violence and rioting or something the people seemed angry somehow...probably something I picked up subconsciously off the radio news at work or something or something that triggered it?

precog I guess
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: moon waxing 43.8 percent of full
Topic: Precognitive Dreams
I should post this under Mothman cuz I am still kinda thinking those weird other dimensional beings are playing games with us humans again. You ever watch Dark City? Where they keep rearranging everything, they freeze everybody and then switch them around and then observe, yeah..that's what I'm talking about. Ok, it's alittle out there but fuck it, who knows what goes on in this Land of Oz or whatever we live in. Ok so the report for the day...here is the dream:
penny dream
today the girl I work I dreamt about brought in a penny that she found on her floor and yep it was like ate away and was only a little more than half a penny. that screwed with me all day, I don't think I've ever seen a half penny like that and right after that stupid murder dream even. so what the hell does that mean? I keep thinking ok, don't panic, it's probably that I was just seeing her finding that penny before it happened and it actually doesn't mean anything except that I seen it before it actually happened and that does actually happen alot to me in dreams so it wouldn't be that unordinary I guess. Alot of times I will see flat tires in dreams and then the next day will see people with flats along the road or whatever and it doesn't really pertain too much to me, it's just that I saw it ahead of time, so time travel must definitely be possible in dream states. I believe in forerunners, where we run through the future in our dreams to check for things or see how it goes, etc, so it's possible while my forerunner is out it is getting things mangled up in dreamstates and ok ..I'm getting out there a little...ok alot. The other day I was thinking about this one guy I know and he wrote that same day even though I hadn't heard from him for a month or so, and then yesterday I kept expecting to get a letter from my sons father and then he tried to call last night. But my thoughts on that are that we are in some sort of pattern and I subconsciously 'know' the pattern and know when to expect him to write or call supposedly 'out of the blue' although to get it accurate to the day- I dont know about that. It's been happening alot lately, and I am fine with it and getting used to it and not tripping out on it like I used to so much as far as thinking I should be able to control it so I can stop the bad stuff I see I think that I am starting to understand whether it is good or bad, i can't control it really, I am just an observer I guess, that takes away alot of guilt over not being able to control it. Ok, I guess I've rambled on enough here so I am going to stop and maybe will have some dreams to post tomorrow. I did dream last night about my friends cousin, he was just standing in the dream and that is all I remember.

aliens or space weather
I just wanted to post and ask if anyone else has noticed alot of violence lately in the news especially shootings. Also on Sunday I haven't checked but I think there was a blackout somewhere and we went to the movies and the projector quit working, a friend of mine said the bowling lanes weren't working, in other words alot of weird electrical stuff going on. You know me, I'm thinking sh&* the aliens are at it again, what are they up to now? :) but then I start thinking coronal mass ejections or geomagnetic storms or something, something is definitely strange effecting electricity and pushing people's buttons right now and I don't think that it is the upcoming Mercury retrograde. I also have an insane amount of precog going on right now, I can't even keep up with it to write it in a journal, I keep thinking that my body/psyche clock is ahead again, somehow my clock has gotten ahead of the rest of the world and god help me when it tries to resynch again, I hate this, sometimes it is neat but sometimes I feel like a big spinning top that has no control. Anyway...anyone else notice anything?

Polly and Marcie
Mood:  hungry
Topic: Synchronicities
Just a few synchronicities that I thought were a little strange, I can't remember my dreams too well this past week though except I dreamt about my ex husband a few days ago. Friday I woke up with Marcie Playground's song Sex and Candy stuck in my head, I kept asking John..haven't you ever heard that song? It's an old song! And I kept trying to remember the name of the band and then finally did, it was Marcie Playground. I hadn't heard that song in years and then got into my car Monday morning to go to work and the first song that came on was that one. I sort of eyed the radio like it was some sort of possessed demon and halfway wondering what the hell it was up to. Saturday I put an old CD of mine into my CD player, it was Nirvana's live Cd and it has the song Polly on it. I used to love that song alot about 10 years ago so I put it on repeat and listened to it like 5 times in a row, I haven't heard that song in years either. Then Tuesday at work I was standing there thinking about the song Polly and thinking how much I liked the version off the cd Nevermind better than the live version. A few minutes after I thought this in my head, the song comes on the radio, and I have NEVER heard them play that on that radio station. My lungs started to hurt at work out of the blue and they hurt really bad and i couldn't figure out why. It was like they used to hurt when I would get Pleurisy or really bad bronchitis but it was mostly on my left side. I talked to John when I got home and he said that his friends' birthday was today, his friend who had died about 10 years ago. I knew he was killed in a car accident and I remembered that sometimes when a spirit is around me I can feel the pain they had when they died, I don't know why or if they do that on purpose for an identifier or what but I took a chance and asked him if his friend crushed his chest or had a collapsed left lung and he said yes, his chest was crushed in the accident. I then remembered the Polly Nevermind song and asked him if his friend liked that album Nevermind? and he said YES! So, I wonder, can ghosts cause the synchronicites? Doesn't that seem to make them sort of magical? Or are we just manifesting all of our reality with each and everyone of our thoughts?? I was thinking about this last week and one word that kept popping up was emotion. I do think that emotion plays a big part in the manifestation of this hologram that we call reality, somehow it charges the energy behind creative manifestation, whether for good or ill, whether out of love or fear, I suppose the higher charged the emotion the faster things may manifest but who knows I suppose. A few other strange things that happened this week was John and I were laying in bed and my bedroom door opened by itself. I figured it was not all the way closed and the people upstairs made it move but John said it was shut completely and opened. Then last week I was doing laundry and I know that I left a pair of jeans in the dryer and forgot about them. I went in the next day to get them and they were gone so I figured someone had taken them. About a week later, this pair of jeans was hanging in my closet. I don't hang up my jeans so I don't believe I did it and forgot. It reminded me of that movie "Sleeping with the Enemy" :( I started feeling like someone around me was suicidal for some reason the past few days, it was really creeping me out and felt like a really big black cloud. Then I realized, the ghostly poltergeist stuff, with the suicide thing, aha! Supposedly, in the apartment across the hall a young guy killed himself. Everytime that apartment is empty and the tenants move out alot of strange stuff happens in my apartment and I always feel like a suicide is near me. This is like the 6th set of neighbors I have went through in just a few years and each time the same stuff happens. I wonder if he gets lonely when no one lives there and wanders across the hall..yesterday I woke up and my light in my dining room popped so loud it scared the shit out of me, I notice that alot of lights seem to pop like a strong voltage is moving through them simultaneous with poltergeist activity. Maybe it is just a coincidence.

A strange long trip into the unknown
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Synchronicities
Ok, the synchs are kind of getting out of control, I met this guy named John and there is alot of strange going on surrounding that. for one we are getting along really really well and unusually well for me and it's triggering alot of memories of dreams and things that have happened. Like the Johnny soulmate dream I had several years ago, and a few years ago when my youngest son who was four at the time kept insisting that there was a 'man named John' in his room all the time. So what does that mean? have we been seeing this guys spirit coming for a while or what? We like so many things the same it isn't possible to say it is just coincidences, it is just really strange. That with the red balloon I found the other day and the dreams I have been having, something is in the air I just don't know what yet.
So the dreams..
the dreams are really vivid and feel extremely real when John is here, what does that mean? The first dream I had when I laid next to him was my ex husband in an angry torrent ripping my parents bathroom cupboard doors off the hinges. Weird. The one last night was really weird too...I dreamt I was in a trailer and there was a black man in the back room that I felt was my father except in the dream I wasn't black. In another bedroom there was a guy who looked military with a combat helmet on and he went into the bedroom and I thought that I was with him for some reason but then I went to go back in the back room to sleep or something and then all of a sudden out of the blue someone grabbed me around the neck and started dragging me, this felt so real and unexpected and I got really fucking scared! I was like "I'm not fighting don't kill me" and this guy had something to my throat and he was planning on raping me. I woke up crying, it was too real, really weird. It reminded me of the dreams I used to have about that guy who used to chase me and stick a gun to my head and I would tell him to please not shoot me because my kids needed a mom. When I got to work today Lisa said she had a similar dream last night, that there was this black man who was someones father (hmmm...) and they wanted her to marry him because he was dying , but he was rich and then it turned out he had AIDS.
Ok some of the weird coincidences between me and this John guy is we like alot of the same music, not too unusual, he told me what kind of furniture he has, black leather couch wrought iron tables and that is exactly the same kind of furniture I have been wanting to buy for the last few years. He said that he wants to buy a house and put statues of gargoyles up the driveway, and I have gargoyle statues in my house. I have been wanting a dog lately and for some reason have been thinking about a German Shepherd and also as always Rotties, and I asked him if he had a dog and he said no but he wants a Rottweiler or a german shepherd. Crazy, we are just too much alike, that could get a little scary I guess...

Precog for lottery number
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: Precognitive Dreams
This is just a comment about a dream I had the other week, I believe it was Thursday the 17th I dreamt that I found a penny with the year 1968 and my coworker was murdered in the dream as a spirit or something and the penny was split in half by my moms dryer. Well, that number hit in the daily four in the state that my coworker lives in on this thursday the 24th (Michigan). The penny split in half probably meant we were supposed to split the winnings and the dryer probably meant the number was 'hot'....UGH!dream of 1968 penny

Strange night for dreams
I doubt if I can remember all of this, last night was a strange night for dreams and there were so many and so detailed I doubt if I can write it all down. The first one I was driving around in my car in a town, I thought I was in Elkhart, but I'm not sure really where I was except that there was an Indiana street and I think a river ran through it, so that describes probably alot of towns. I drowe to this one house and then I flew out of my car, like I was astral projecting, I went inside this big old house and flew around looking for someone, there was someone sleeping on the couch that I thought might be the person I was looking for but then I hurried and left the house. This guy followed me out, I kept thinking his name was Marty or Martin or something and he asked me what I was looking for. I told him I was looking for Troy and was that his house and he told me No. I got in my car and left, then I couldn't see, like I got that weird blindness again.
Then I dreamt that I was buying this house on a lake. This house was a big brown house, it was really old. Across the street was a lake and it looked like some land with two lakes on each side. The house was huge and I was calling Lisa my friend to come check this out. But..it was haunted. It had alot of rooms and there was this one at the top of the house that was realy really haunted bad. I can't remember all of it except that the guy who was in that room finally showed himself and he was buried in the room and we dug him up somehow. He then went from looking really old and icky to looking really young, like the day he died and he took off to go look for his killer. Then we found an old lady in the bottom of the house somewhere, it was a really freaky dream and I was trying to get out of buying the house by the end of the dream and it was really far away from where I worked and stuff. It was a cool looking old house though.

Being sucked into an old house
Topic: Regular Dreams
Ok, my dreams have been sort of strange the past few days and I can't remember all of them but last night I dreamt that I was at this house I used to dream about quite a bit and I would always get sucked into the house, I'd be walking down the road and the house would suck me in like a vaccuum. so I got sucked into this house and it used to have demons in it but now it had a tanning bed, haha. I was like cool! a tanning bed! I haven't got to tan all week! There were tons of rooms and also some guys I don't know who they were. Then I was in these people's driveway and their house was pretty big and brownish or tan I think, it was a two story and the garage was sort of built into a hill. guys lived here but I don't know who they were. The house I got sucked into I was talking on the phone with Scott-Koolaid-tattoo goat head- and I asked him if he wanted to go see Motorhead with us and he said "Hell no I don't want to go see them" Ok , then the dream shifted and I was at my moms and my coworker had died, she was murdered and I think a baby was murdered with her, and I was standing in front of my moms dryer and there was blood on the floor. I looked down and saw a penny and it was cut like in half and the date was 1968. I don't know why but I thought that it should be my coworkers birth year but in the dream I knew that it wasn't.

synchs
Topic: Synchronicities
My sons father called a few days ago, I knew he would because of that stupid dream I had of him the other day and he was apologizing for being an ass like he did in the dream, but one thing strange that happened is he said that he dreamt about me several nights before and it made me wonder..if we dreamt about each other on the same night...
things to make you go hmmmm