whiskey bottles
Dreamt last night that I was showing someone my empty bottles of whiskey, they were very cool bottles and I had four of those Jim Beam collectible I dream of Jeannie bottles in different colors (I do have two of them in real life) and there were a few other ones that were really cool.

the ghost
Topic: Synchronicities
Oh yeah....last week my ghost friend must've been following me around again, playin with me. My radio stations kept switchin by themselves and then one weird coincidence was I was filling out myspace and I looked down and it shows two people's profiles in 'cool new people' and it was both my son's names. I thought that was crazy, it wasn't
them, just their names but for them to pick profiles with those two names together at the same exact time i was filling that out, was just too coincidental to be just a coincidence...ya know?

strange few weeks
Mood:  smelly
Topic: Synchronicities
Well I haven't posted in forever, I keep forgetting and I didn't have a computer so it made it really hard but now that I have a computer again I'm gonna try to write in here regular, I always feel stupid writing in here in case anyone else reads it, maybe I should make it private, seems weird to write this stuff on an internet blog. I haven't had many dreams lately. I dreamt the other night that I mowed my yard and the neighbor man had mowed a few strips of his lawn and then stopped, it was kind of a weird dream I guess, I hope he is ok.. Yesterday I kept thinking my oldest son should get a truck driving job and then he calls me later and tells me that he is trying to get a truck driving job, and then all day I was thinking about putting up my son's basketball net and rim and was asking a guy at work how far up the rim had to be, etc, and then later my dad called and told me he was going to come over and put it up next week. So that was interesting day, I did notice that the geomagnetic storms were pretty bad, the veil is supposedly thinner when that happens but I'm not sure I believe that really. Something else happened that was kind of strange. This new girl started at work and I kept looking at her and she seemed to change colors, it was kind of weird and it was creeping me out, she's white but I kept seeing her as black. Then yesterday I noticed a picture she put up of her and her boyfriend and he is black, so I don't know if maybe I was picking up on that or maybe she feels like a black person, or maybe their energies were mixed together and I was seeing that, I kept thinking, she's mixed somehow when I was seeing it, it was just kind of weird.....

dreams from the past few months
I haven't posted in months and haven't had very many unusual dreams but I thought I would post a few while I am able to access a computer. I kept dreaming about a white cadillac about a month ago, the one dreams went like this:
I was with Jeff my ex husband in a big truck, there was this white cadillac and it kept trying to get our attention, actually I think it was trying to race us. Jeff got on it but I yelled at him and told him to stop because I was afraid they would hurt us or something. The car got in front of us and then turned around and I told him to see what they wanted. He asked the guy what he wanted and the guy told us to follow him, so we did. He took us to a mansion (and I have had other dreams about mansions lately) and I got a feeling like this guy was in the mafia or something. We were walking around the house and suddenly the guy comes up behind me and grabs my hands, not in a bad way but just grabs my hands behind my back, like affectionate. he was about 6 foot tall with a short crew cut hair style.

Last week I had a few dreams I can remember, one was I was out in my garage and in real life I cannot get into the garage attic because I don't have a ladder so it is sort of a source of curiousity right now for me. In the dream there was a black man and he was in my garage, I asked him what he was doing and he said he was staying up in the attic in the garage. I followed him up there because he had a ladder and he showed me the attic and there were rows of beds, kind of like an institution would have rows of beds for alot of people. I woke up.

I dreamt that my friend Dale was talking to me but I cannot remember what it was about, then on 10-12-2005 I had visions that he was sitting on a concrete floor and it looked like he was flinching or trying to duck from someone hitting him.

I keep thaving visions of a yellow balloon. I don't know what that is about.

About a month ago I had a dream that I was out at my friend Dale's mom and dad's old house. His brother, my son's father was there also and so was there step mom. She was riding this very old beaten up old tractor that was falling apart. My son's father was there but I didn't talk to him much but Dale and I sat at a small round table outside and he was talking to me. He had a yellow ribbon wrapped around his neck.

There are alot of synchronicities happening lately, more than just coincidental, it's been pretty strange....and the new house has had some 'visitors' doing things like turning the tv off, shutting doors, we've heard a woman talking-my son and I both, animals acting strangely, but so far nothing bad. My radio kept switching by itself in the car, at work and at home to station 104.1. Right now I keep seeing triple numbers like 111, 222, 666, don't know what is up with that, it's been interesting to say the least..

truck dream and some other dreams
Haven't posted in a while but figured if I posted maybe I'll remember more dreams :) Ok last week I dreamt that I went to the mailbox and there was a letter from a friend and a mailing from my mtg co. and when I woke up I went out and looked and there was. The other night I dreamt about my old rottweiler Nikki, she was licking my hand or something. And then last night I dreamt I was in a tan truck and it seemed like it was snowing and I noticed the headlights weren't working, so I got out and the headlights were falling out of the truck and I beat them and they started working. I kept thinking in the dream I wish I would've just taken my car...lol

flying at a party and a gun to my head
Topic: Lucid Dreams
I dreamt I was at a party at someone's house but I didn't know anyone there. I was talking to this dark haired guy and then I remember talking to this shoulder length blonde haired guy, he was about 5'10" or so and I think he had brown eyes. I was standing there talking to him and he said "see I think you do like me" , I seem to think that he might be the same guy in the hologram dream that I've also had dreams about here and there throughout the years who takes me thru the closet, usually dreams with him are lucid, false awakenings, or ap dreams and sometimes they are precog dreams as well. We were standing there and all of a sudden I started floating up to the ceiling and couldn't seem to control it. I heard a bunch of people saying "Look at her, how weird! She's floating up on the ceiling" (reminds me of a ZZtop song, haha) I came back down to the ground and then I started floating again, it was like I couldnt stop it. I kept trying to stay on the ground but couldn't, so I tried laying down and I zipped across the floor on my back really fast, not trying and went through the wall, which was making me mad because I wanted to ask that guy who he was and what he meant because I couldn't understand why he said what he did. I got back in the house but started floating this time and this time I must have become lucid for a minute because I could hear them talking about me floating impossibly up to the ceiling again and decided to show them that I could even go through the ceiling. I focused on bursting energy and propelling myself up and I went through the ceiling but then started flying way up in the sky and decided I didn't want to leave yet and brought myself back down. I told this guy on the ground that he needed to hold onto me so I wouldn't float away because I couldn't seem to control it so he grabbed me and took me back inside the house, the house looked like a one small story bluish colored house with trees in the yard and maybe an alley next to it. the guy who grabbed me seemed like the first guy I saw with the dark hair, I think he was the same guy I saw in the dream the other night that was wanting me to follow him when I couldn't find my shoes. Well, the house he took me inside was not the same house the party was in before, it was a different party and as soon as I walked in there were tons of people standing in the living room. Then I saw two guys with guns, they appeared to be robbing the house at gunpoint and then he asked if there was any heroin in the house. I heard someone say no and then guy seemed perturbed and said that if anyone moved he would shoot them and told everyone to put their hands up where he could see them. I was trying to study his face so I could remember what he looked like, he was african american, about 5'9", i just kept studying his face and he looked at me so I backed up to a couch with this other lady. I was freaking out and she kept telling me to put my hands up so I wouldn't get shot so I raised them up and I could hear her praying and she was kind of waving her hands like she was praying, swaying. I saw the guy go around and then I felt the gun on the back of my head and I felt this weird pressure, I must've started to become lucid again because I started concentrating on spinning really fast, trying to spin my energy really fast and I started seeing flashes of light and then I could hear people saying "what's going on? whats going on? whats happening?" and the guy made a weird sound like he was stunned and then I woke up

Virtual reality game and wake up Tracy!
Topic: Regular Dreams
Last nights dream was another doozy, I don't know if it is this semi-fast I am on or what causing all these crazy dreams but here goes!

I'm at my son's Tae kwon do teacher's house. He has a big old house with a deck going all the way around, big big old house in the dream (I don't know what his house looks like in real life), it seems to be where one of my childhood friends house used to be, back on a secluded lake where I've had some really strange happen in real life. He shows me some game system he has on the side of his house and it is actually like a huge room with a virtual reality game inside of it, he wants me to try it so I go inside of the room and start playing. I'm in this room and this monster with weird arms jumps on my back. I try to get him off my back and succeed for a minute then try to walk through a door and then he jumps on my back again. I go through the door and Shawn is yelling that is where you fight the big monster! I decide I don't want to fight the big monster with this stupid other monster on my back so I go back through the door and shake the other monster off, he climbs back on just as I get through the door and I arch my shoulders out and pull my back in and he can't seem to stay on me this time so I go through the door to fight the big monster. When I open the door this time there is a scenic sight instead of a big monster and shawn is like "What the hell? I've never seen this level before, I've beat the game and I've never seen this level before!" and I say "Maybe it's a secret level that you can only reach if you shake that stupid monster off your back" , we go inside the house and he says he has to check on Brook (another friend of mine's daughter) because she is playing on the computer, he has some kind of daycare going on. I lay down on this goldish orange looking recliner and start falling asleep. I'm fighting sleep but it's like I am so groggy I can't keep my eyes open, I'm really sluggish and going under and can't wake up and I can hear the kids saying "She's falling asleep! She's falling asleep!" and I hear Shawn saying "Tracy you can't sleep in that chair wake up" and I kept trying to wake up, finally I groggily got up and then I went to the door and there was this young dark haired guy running going "cmon! cmon!" and I was like "I got to find my shoes, I can't find my shoes" then I woke up..

Reality Testing for Dreaming
1. Look at your watch or a clock
This is likely to work, as numbers and letters are normally random in
dreams. So, if you look at your watch and it is "12:25" one time and
"2:33" the other, you know you are dreaming, and can attempt to become
Lucid or something similair.

2. Attempt to Write
When you write, it may not be legible or normal, and the letters may
change, as with above. If you notice this, it may be an idea to do
another check, or attempt to become Lucid by flying or something similair.

3. Try to find unusual things in the world
These are things to look out for in a dream. If, for example, the sky
is green and an alien is attacking you, it is most certainly a dream. Of
course, it could be 100 times more subtle than this, as is normal. When
you pick up on this, try flying or something similair. This should
trigger Lucidity.

4. Find a book, newspaper, magazine, or any other reading material
When you are lucid dreaming, the part of your brain in charge of
recognizing numbers and letter is still asleep. If you have problems reading
text, or read it once and when you try again it is different, then you
are most likely dreaming.

5. Turning the lights on/off
When you are dreaming, one of the things that you are unable to do is
adjust the light level of the settings you are in. If you try to turn
the light switch on/off and nothing happens then there are 2
possibilities:
a. You are dreaming
b. The light bulb burnt out the light switch doesn't work for some
reason.

6. Trying something considered "impossible"
Another method to test whether you are in a dream or not is to try
somthing that you know is impossible in the waking life. Commonly used
examples of this are: Putting your finger through your palm, crossing over
through a mirror, levitating, etc. I suggest you don't try something
like flying out your window or such...just to be on the safe side...

7. Memory Check
This is a method where you are "asking" yourself what have happened
during the day, or fortunately a dream. Try to think back as far as you
can. When you perform this method, you will be aware if you have
experienced anything illogical during the day, and you may have blank periods.

8. Mirror Check
Go to a mirror, and look at your self carefully. Ask yourself if you
are dreaming. If you are dreaming, it is likely that you will notice
something strange in the mirror. For instance, you could have a different
hair style from normal, or different clothes. You may also look like you
are a completely different person. In this case, you are definately
dreaming.

9. Self Observation Test
This is a very flexible reality check. It takes little time, and you
could do it almost all the time. Look at your self. If you have, for
instance, 7 fingers on one hand, you are dreaming. You could also look at
your clothes. If they look strange, you are probably dreaming.

10. Look for a dream sign
Dream signs are common things which appear in your dreams. For example,
in some dreams, you may always see a certain person (possibly a dream
guide) and the same features (for example, something which does not
exist in reality but is always there in your dreams).

11. The Breathing Test
This is a nice all-rounder. Pinch your nose closed and keep breathing.
Try not to think about your breathing while doing it, just leave your
usual 'automatic' breathing to do its work. Then check if you actually
managed to breathe. If you can, you're dreaming.

12. Emotion Analysis
Pay close attention to how you feel. If something causes you to react a
certain way - frustration, bliss, laughter, it would be a good time to
determine your state. The feelings generated by a dream are the same as
in the waking world, so it's certainly something to keep in check.

13. Constant physical awareness
If you're like me, you've been trained to be rushing from point A to
point B throughout life. Life is a race and there's no sense of *now*.
Learning to control the feeling of now is a great way to pick up on the
inconsistencies. I find that learning to consciously acknowledge the
little things in life is a great way to regenerate the mind's analytical
ability. I find this to be very strong in kids. They will pick up on
something insignificant to my mind, and point it out to me, and I will be
thinking 'How did you notice that?'
It's that sense of 'now', the feeling that there's not some light
waiting at the end of a tunnel, but that the tunnel is filled with light.

14. Use a computer
This one's easy. Do your normal startup programs run? Can you access
the internet okay? Go to a lucid dreaming site every day you wake up - it
might help trigger an LD.

15. Look outside
Is the weather normal for the season? For example, if it's snowing in
the middle of summer you're either dreaming or the ice age has started.

16. Look at the layout of your room
Is it how you left it when you went to sleep? If you have shelves, is
everything on the shelves that you expected to?

17. Look/use a telephone
Are all the numbers in order? Press the "call" button. Do you get the
"boooo" tone?

18. Jump
Just do it. Do you float? Do you stay in the air for an abnormal amount
of time? Do you hear the "thump" sound when you land?

19. Say something
Sometimes your voice can be disorted in a dream, so just say something
like "I think pie is good".

20. Throw something
Throw a soft ball or something of the sort. Does it act as you would
expect it to? Does it stay up or move abnormally far?

21. Look at your pets
If you have pets, just look at them. Do they look normal? Stroke them.
Do they feel as they should?

22. Talk to somebody
Talk to somebody, preferably somebody you actually know. Do they act as
they usually act?

23. Play some music
Are the lyrics as they should be? Are the singers the people that
should be singing? Does it sound distorted?

24. Smell something
Quite easy. Spray something or some perfume or just smell something-
does it smell as expected?

Lights out, sleeping with the devil
Mood:  quizzical
Topic: False Awakenings
Last nights dream was a strange one. I wasn't asleep very long before i started dreaming, probably a little less than an hour. I thought I actually woke up and walked out to the dining area in my apartment, I kept trying to turn on the lights but the lights would not turn on. I started getting a little scared because I thought I was really awake, I hate those kind of dreams because they are so tricky. Somehow I figured out I was dreaming, I can't remember how, but I recall thinking in the dream that it was actually just a dream so I decided to not be scared of not being able to turn on the lights and I went back into my bedroom. I laid down and there is a slight gap from the time I left the living/dining area to the time I got back in my bed. I was laying there in bed and I heard someone say something in a very deep voice right next to me. I turned over, which actually suprised me that I was able to turn and to look, and there was a demonic looking being laying next to me. I freaked out for a second and then remembered I was just dreaming and I calmed down. I said "You're Lucifer aren't you?" and he said with a laugh "How did you know?" he was a greyish looking being with curled horns on his head, he seemed like he wanted to have sex or something and since I was lucid I thought what the hell. I was getting extremely turned on and reminding myself I was still dreaming and this couldn't actually be real I like snuggled up to this weird looking thing and he said he wouldn't do anything with me because he was afraid that he would hurt or break me. It was really weird. He was afraid if we had sex he would hurt me, haha. then he started doing other things to me that were getting me insanely aroused and then I woke up for real. I laid there for a minute just sort of waiting it out to see if I was actually awake this time or woke up into another dream. Finally I fell back asleep and didn't dream anymore. I was kind of afraid when I woke up back up but not really because the thing whatever it was didn't seem harmful, either that or I've figured out in these states to roll with it and not be so afraid.
I don't really understand why I dreamt this, these false awakenings always seem to have demonic type creatures or people in them, so it must be some kind of meeting with my shadow side or something. The false awakenings are probably the most interesting of all the dreams and always seem to have some sort of supernatural type quality to them, like I went to work today and my partner across the table said her lights went out approximately the same time I had the dream, and she said noone else on her street lost their lights so she wasnt' sure why she lost her lights. I thought this was slightly coincidental. Another thing strange that happened yesterday was that my youngest son woke up and said ina half sleep "Mary Jane", I was like "What? why are you saying that?" he said it again and then he woke up. Later in the day he said that he wanted to change his name to "Jeff", I said why would you want that name? He said I want to change my name to Jeff and you can't stop me!" the thing that is curious about this is that my exhusband Jeff was singing the song Mary Janes last dance the day we split up. Everytime I hear that song I hear from him shortly afterwards. For my son to link these two things in one day was extremely strange and I have to wonder if my exhusband is thinking about us again and coming back into our reality for some reason.

UFOs and a dream
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: UFO's
I thought I posted this but obviously I didn't so here I go again. A few weeks ago I think, a guy at work and I saw something in the sky, it looked like a UFO or something to me because it did not look like an airplane and I asked him "hey does that look like a plane to you?" and he said "no..." I can't remember the whole sequence of things and how exactly things went into order but a few days before that I was talking to a friend of mine's 14 year old aughter about UFO's and alien abduction, we sat back in my friend's woods and talked about it for several hours.... A few nights after the ufo sighting or whatever it was I had a dream. I dreamt me and several other people were standing outside and we saw a UFO in the sky above the apartment building. I said "hey, look isn't that a ufo?". It was a saucer shaped one even though both times I have thought I have seen one in real life they have been triangular. The saucer seemed like it was going away but then circled around and came back and flew really low and landed at my feet. I saw a greyish blue alien or whatever get out of the saucer shaped ship and he was about my height, which is about 5'4", and he had just a little bit of a big head and his eyes were fairly large but nothing like what you see in books or whatever. His skin also looked extremely porous, almost like foam or something. At first I thought Ok, I can make frineds and talk to this dude but then I realized after a few seconds that he was not as nice as I thought and that he was going to hurt me. I started feeling like I was being paralyzed or something and I broke free of it and shook him and started stomping on him until he was a big splat of grey on the ground. then the dream shifted and I was in my apartment. There were two other people, one was a guy drawing a picture of a UFO on a drawing sheet of paper, like Bristol or something and the other one seemed to be a therapist. I was talking to the therapist I think and I started crying uncontrollably and I just curled up on the floor and for some reason I started spinning slowly in a circle, like I was laying on a turn table of some kind or something. I then woke up. I was pretty scared when I woke up.