grandma
Topic: Regular Dreams
I dreamt I was at grandmas house and it was haunted.  I kept telling whatever it was to go away but it wouldn't.  Then I said "Grandma is that you?" and grandma appeared.  She looked very solid and white and I asked the other person in the room if they could see her!  They could and I asked her why she hadn't gone into the light.  She said that she saw the light but she wasn't ready to go, that she was waiting and had alot of people counting on her.  I told her that she needed to go into the light but she said she wasn't ready.  I told her that grandpa was waiting for her and then I asked her if I could tell Dad and she said no I better now.  So then in the dream I went and got my dad and we went back but the house was different and people were living there and she wasn't there anymore.  Then the house demolished.

old car new car
Topic: Regular Dreams
Strange dream last night.  I dreamt I was in Bristol, a town I used to live in and I had my car, but I also had an old car that Jeff and I used to have.  I don't know what I was doing, but I put gas in it and put it in gear and sent it down the road and was going to catch it later.  I couldn't drive the two cars so I sent that one up ahead alone lol, and was going to catch it and stop it in a minute.  So, I get gas in my now car and I go to find the old car and it's gone!  I look and look and thought maybe it crashed but couldn't find it, and I had put money in the trunk for some reason.  I get to this warehouse place and start asking people if they saw it but no one has and then this place turns into a school.  The class is about ghosts but not real ghosts, it's more about fake scary things.  I asked the lady if even though there were fake ghost there if she thought that maybe there were real ones there as well?  or if she ever experieneced anything odd?  And she said well maybe... that's all I remember, I never did find my car, someone said they saw it down by the railroad tracks and now I'm trying to remember if it was my old car or the car my brother got killed in...hmmmm

Insomnia, Valerian Root and crazy dreams
Topic: Regular Dreams
On my search for something to cure my insomnia I stumbled upon Valerian Root.   This stuff is great!  It knocks my ass  out and whoa it's been giving some really bizarre dreams, funny ones..

First one:  I'm in this place, I think it is a video store but it has lockers like the Ymca.  I'm in the locker area and I see this lizard looking thing and I swear it shift shapes into something else, so I look at it again and it's a cat!  A cat?  Ok, so I grab somebody else and I tell them, check this thing out, it's crazy!  So we watch together and we spotted again and it's a lizard, but then it turns into a mouse and then into a cat!  I wake up..

Next dream..

I'm in a house, a big ass house and jeff and some of his friends are there but it is our house.  (Not our house in real life)  I go to this added room and it's a laboratory, there's men in white coats working on something and I ask Jeff, what the hell are they doing?  He says "working on the computers I think"  It's snowing outside and there is kids outside with sleds, I go out there and slide up and down these hills and it's great, really slippery, lol.  Come back and Jeff screams at me that I'm an idiot, and I tell him get out!  Then he gets all lovey and kisses me and says he was just kidding, lol.

Next dream..

Another weird one.  LMAO.  Ok this one I attribute to reading magazines in the grocery store checkout lane and watching way too many episodes of House!  I'm in this place and Brad Pitt is there.  hehe.  He's talking to me and we are going to go do something and he's having a really rough time with Angelina, lol.  I tell him that he has to check out this town nearby, it has some really cool stores so we make a date to go check this place out.  Then I am in this town and it's an older town and there is really not a whole lot there so I'm not sure why I suggested this place.  Then my cell phone rings and I answer.  The woman on the other end says "Who is this?"  I say Tracy.  I say who is this?  And she says "Jolie"  I'm like I don't know who that is?  But I did, and was acting like I didn't, lol.  She says "You know damn well, it's Jolie, and it's ok that you are helping him, keep him occupied for me because I really need to concentrate on helping House right now!  Then I wake up.....

LMAO!!!!!!!!!!! 

Snakes and scary Monsters
Topic: Regular Dreams
Maybe it's the ritalin.  They just get weirder and weirder.  I dreamt I  was in a public place, it looked like a toilet but it was as big as a bathtub and I looked in the toilet/bathtub and there was a snake , a big green snake, so I tried to hurry and flush it and this big giant toilet/bathtub thing, I mean it looked like a bathtub but it flushed like a toilet, maybe a hot tub?  the snake would not go down and I thought it was  going to bite me.  Then there were other creatures and I couldnt figure out what or where they came from but they were SCARY.  Ok, so I thought I got most of them to flush down and I found JR, so it obviously had something to do with all the nasty shit at Irvine, haha.  I told him that there were creatures in the toilet/bathtub thing.  Later there was a shelf by the bathtub thing and it had a bunch of stuff on it, cool stuff- jewelry- cosmetics- all kinds of cool stuff- and so I thought wow there was all this stuff in the bathtub thing- JR must have pulled it out- so I figured it was free and started grabbing some of it.  Jr walked by and I said 'did you get this stuff out of that thing?" and he was like "huh?  I don't know where that stuff came from"  Then Chris Adams walked by and I asked her where it came from but she didn't know either, so I was like fuck it, it's mine!  lol...  then I saw someone who just got their hair cut, and decided to go get mine cut. I went to where they told me and got my hair cut.  It was a restaurant /hair salon (that just sounds gross, lol)  hair on one side/ restaurant on the other.  Then I noticed Stacey, from Irvine, she said that she went and learned to cut hair and now worked there, it took her 50 weeks.  Then the dream switched to Universal Tae Kwon Do.  Ok, now Universal is closed for real but Eddie used to go there.  Sean is gone but Nancy was teaching class, she was the black belt in charge.  There were quite a few people there I didn't know and a few I did, but she was the only one who seemed to have a higher belt, weird.

PRISON AND JEFF
Mood:  down
Topic: Regular Dreams
Lots of weird dreams lately, I don't know if it's this ritalin or what but my dreams are getting so strange.  that and the red balloons are back..

Last week I dreamt that I asked Jeff if he loved me and he told me no, and then I said I already knew that and then he turned into someone I don't know- kind of resembled big Eddie but it wasn't big Eddie, it was weird, then Lisa said 'he's lying because I asked him and he said he did' lol....I'm like whatever.   Then the visiting jail dreams, I have dreamt 3 times that I've visited someone in prison, twice I think it was big Eddie but one of the places was this same place that I've dreamt about alot but I've never visited there and I haven't dreamt about it since Scott was in prison.  I don't know why all the prison dreams, maybe because Jeremy is in trouble again.  Then I dreamt again that I told Jeff to move out, but we were at my moms house up on the lake and Jeffs best friend was there with his girlfriend (and he doesn't have a girlfriend, lol), there's more I can't remember

Chantix dreams part 3
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: Regular Dreams
I'm going to post one dream seperately because it falls in a different category.  I've been taking the Chantix for almost 2 weeks but have discontinued it due to the feelings of depression and the strange antisocial feeling I get with it.  The dreams have been very vivid however.  Last night I dreamt about my friend Scott who was in prison before, he was in some sort of half way house and I went to go see him, I was talking about him yesterday to someone so I imagine that is what triggered the dream.  I can't remember all the dreams, one was  of my son's father who is also in prison.  I dreamt I went to go visit him, and I was also talking about him the same day so that is probably why I dreamt about him.  The rest of the dreams are just fragments.  The next dream I post was a little odd...

chantix dreams
Topic: Regular Dreams

This whole week has been full of very vivid dreams, I'll start with the first few.   I started taking Chantix again on Monday, half a pill and the dreams started the first night.  If you don't know what Chantix is, it is a pill that they prescribe to help people quit smoking, somehow it blocks nicotine from getting into the brain, so if you do smoke it is useless, the nicotine doesn't get in.   After a few weeks it just feels like you are smoking a carrot or something if you do smoke.  I've tried it in the past but it has had some really bad side effects on me, like making me extremely depressed or antisocial.  Ok so the first set of dreams

The first set of dreams had to do with shopping.  The first shopping dream I was buying clothes.  I had all kinds of awesome clothes I was trying on, lol.  The store was closing and I wanted to hurry up and try this one outfit on and so I just tried it on in the aisle.  Then this guy walked by, dark haired and was looking at me like what the hell are you doing?  lol.   Second shopping dream, I dreamt me, Lisa, and Tonia from work were shopping at a store like Target or Kmart.  I got all this makeup but somehow the colors were getting tangled up.  I went to the cashier and she untangled it and then I started thinking that I forgot eye liner and stuff, and it was like she was reading my mind, she pulled out mascara, eye liner, and lip gloss, and I was like whoa that is what I was thinking I forgot, how did you do that??  lol..funny ass dreams.  I tried to remember the total of the purchase because I remember looking at the receipt and it was 43 something.  Sometimes my  numbers in dreams will hit the daily 3 or 4 so I'm really wishing I would remember!  I'll try harder next time

work dream
Topic: Regular Dreams
I dreamt that I was assembling and right behind me this girl Nikki who quit was working.  I said to her "oh you decided to come back?" and she started talking and laughing like nothing ever happened.  All of a sudden I felt very dizzy, like I was going to pass out and I told her , "Look if I pass out don't tell Charlene (the boss).  I'm already in enough shit and I don't need her over here.  I started to black out and pass out and then I woke up.

Angry bosses
Topic: Regular Dreams
Alright, I had a dream last night about Charlene and work.  I dreamt that she told me to go finish, so I did and she was up my ass again checking my shades, etc.  She was stomping around, just having a big attitude and then she told me to go home at 9 o'clock.  That didn't bother me, but she was really acting angry so I went up to and said "what is wrong with you?" She just busted out crying and said "I am so fucking angry!"   I said 'what are you so angry about?" and she said "we're never going to get all these shades done!!" .. I looked at her and said 'we're working on stuff for next week, what are you stressing out about?'  then I woke up.  And then I realized, when she told me the other day that I was under too much stress doing my job, that really..she is under too much stress maybe, on her job...I don't know..odd dream.

Washington
Topic: Regular Dreams
Damn it!  I just remembered this dream and now it like poofed right out of my mind!  I remember I was in Washington with Scott and we were doing something but now for the life of me I can't remember what it was.  I have been trying really hard to pay attention more to the dreams so I can ramp up the lucidity again in them but for some reason it seems like I have blocked it some how.  I am starting to think that those dreams where I am paralyzed are the ones that are scaring me because I have had two of those in the last month and both times I have shaken out of it before it goes anywhere.  It was alot easier to have lucid dreams when I didn't know how to shake out of the paralysis.  Which is a good thing?  Or not?  I had a thought the other day that maybe if I start really paying attention to details during the day that naturally I would do it in a dream as well..so I'm working on that.  I do pretty good at staying in the moment but paying attention to detail is not my strong suit and maybe that is what I need to do in dreams, I mean seriously how could I not know that I was dreaming when I dreamt there was a cafeteria at the Y?  My subconscious needs Adderall!