married..twice
I had a dream last night and it is just barely a vague recollection , here is the bits and pieces. I had a dream about my sons father. He is married in real life and I dreamt also that he was married in this dream. We were talking and we were also not getting along very well and then this guy told the courts a lie and I was married to him. something happened where I also married my sons father and then I was married to two men, which is illegal and in the dream I was trying to remember the name of what that is called when you marry more than one person..

Maya the illusion
Ok bear with me cuz I am reaching again. I always feel like I am trying to reach into a pool of water to grab something but everytime I do the water ripples and I lose the clarity of what I was reaching for and then I forget...

I've been thinking about how the different mental thoughts of myself and others around me seem to be somehow constructing what appears in my physical reality, manifesting also as 'signs' or synchronicities or coincidences, giving the feeling that ''this can't be real' or the twilight zone feeling of 'deja vu!' , I can't just accept that this is 'just spirit' as my curious and investigative mind urges me to explore deeper...deeper...

into what?

Now I am back in the pool of water. Reaching in and trying to understand exactly what I have thrown my energy into ..
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again.

Looking for a label..I search my memory banks and all that keeps repeating itself like a skipping record is

"Maya"

But..what is Maya? Exactly? I guess the ripples are what keeps us from pinning the Great Maya under our thumbs, but what are your thoughts? I would like to hear from anyone who has a thought on this subject and thanks in advance!

Here is what I found on a website today..

Maya or illusion is an element which enters into all finite things, for everything that exists has only a relative, not an absolute reality, since the appearance which the hidden noumenon assumes for any observer depends upon his power of cognition. To the untrained eye of the savage, a painting is at first an unmeaning confusion of streaks and daubs of colour, while an educated eye sees instantly a face or a landscape. Nothing is permanent except the one hidden absolute existence which contains in itself the noumena of all realities. The existences belonging to every plane of being, up to the highest Dhyan Chohans, are, in degree, of the nature of shadows cast by a magic lantern on a colourless screen; but all things are relatively real, for the cognizer is also a reflection, and the things cognized are therefore as real to him as himself. Whatever reality things possess must be looked for in them before or after they have passed like a flash through the material world; but we cannot cognize any such existence directly, so long as we have sense-instruments which bring only material existence into the field of our consciousness. Whatever plane our consciousness may be acting in, both we and the things belonging to that plane are, for the time being, our only realities. As we rise in the scale of development we perceive that during the stages through which we have passed we mistook shadows for realities, and the upward progress of the Ego is a series of progressive awakenings, each advance bringing with it the idea that now, at last, we have reached "reality"; but only when we shall have reached the absolute Consciousness, and blended our own with it, shall we be free from the delusions produced by Maya.

electrical craziness
Topic: Regular Dreams
Hey everybody,
We've been getting alot of crazy storms around here, last week they saw funnel clouds in this area and when I got home from work I saw a bunch of lightening bolts near my little town and when i got home my TV and VCR were fried (it happened between the night before and the time I came home from work, that was my second TV in 6 months, and I HAD a surge protector on that one but took it off last week to put on the computer .....UGH!, I am still not sure if it was the lightening that did it though, I seem to have problems with the electricity in every house I live in :-( So, this morning I woke up, I had dreams about this guy that I have dreamt about off and on for the last couple years but I don't know who he is.
I only remember the last part of the dream, this guy was my boyfriend in the dream and he has blondish colored hair, for some reason I called him a whore dog and he said "you are just as big of a whore dog as I am" and I laughed and said "You are right, maybe that is why we get along so well" then I started singing that country song "Two of a kind, working on a full house"

Then.. I woke up it was storming again, my alarm clock was going off and was playing on an alternative rock station, just then lightening hit and the station switched to a hip hop station that is no where near the other station on the radio (it is not a digital radio, it is a dial radio, where you have to change the station with a dial) lightening hit again and the station switched back to the original one. Then my other radio came on in the bedroom, it also is a dial radio and it was on a country station although I know that it wasn't on that station yesterday. My brother who I talked to today, said that maybe the lightening was doing something to the radio waves, which might explain the first radio but I don't think it does the second radio.

Past week dreams
Topic: Regular Dreams
Been a little lazy on the dream writing, here's the past week or so..

1)Dreamt I was at the babysitters house, and I was writing her a check but I kept screwing up the amount on the check and kept having to rewrite the check. Can't remember the numbers on the check though :(

2)Dreamt that someone, I think it was one of my guy friends, was with me at the mall and we were on four wheelers on a second story and going to go down an escalator on our four wheelers, he was trying to show me how to ride the four wheeler. then the dream shifted and we were making a list of all the things good and bad about each other that we liked or didn't like.

3)Dreamt that I was at work and this coworker of mine was making hamburgers, I was trying to show him how to make the hamburgers thinner so they would get done because all his hamburgers were pink/red in the middle :( then this other guy that works with us asked me for some coffee creamer. I told him it was upstairs and he walked upstairs. I could see a coffee pot brewing up there when I looked up the steps. He came down the steps dragging a box that looked like fabric but it was coffee creamer. It had an expiration date on it and I think it was 1923 and I also saw maybe a 1950 something date, I thought maybe it was 1953 (this guy later told me he was born in 1953 so maybe that was it instead of 1923).

4)I dreamt that I was at the 7-11 and there was this really small sickly looking dark haired lady there. she kept talking about how she wasn't as sick as she looked and that she was deficient in some kind of vitamin. then we ended up at this local farmers market, but instead of a farmers market it was a house trailer. One of my coworkers was there and so was this sickly looking little dark haired lady (she couldn't have been more than 4 foot tall!) we were talking to this lady and I looked up in the sky and there was this strange looking vehicle in the sky, it didn't look like a common UFO really but it was like no plane I have ever seen, it had several red blinking lights on it. Then i saw several planes chasing this thing and shooting at it. then I saw several of these UFO's and they both had three or four planes chasing and shooting at them. They got pretty close and I could actually see this thing up close and I saw the bullets or whatever hitting it from the other planes but it didn't even put a dent in the UFO plane. (After I woke up I realized that I have had a similar dream to this one before, I have dreamt about those things I saw in the sky and the planes chasing them)

Army son comes home
I dreamt that I went down to Kentucky to see my son, but it was in some city and I couldn't find him. I kept getting lost on the roads and finally I found this guy who said he would show me where my son was at. then I dreamt that my son came home. that was the strange part of the dream. I asked him if he was awol and he said NO I just came home to see you. I said how did you get here? then he started falling asleep and I said "WAKE UP!" , he woke up a little then he started falling asleep again and I kept telling him to wake up. Then I woke up.

The other day something strange happened here at home. I was sitting next to the front door window and I thought I saw my son outside, he was dressed like him, walked like him, had the same haircut and even was about the same height and weight. I watched this kid who looked like my son walk away from my doorway and then he turned and walked a little bit, I stood watching him for about 5 minutes and I was convinced it was him! I yelled "WHAT ARE YOU DOING????" , then this kid yells back 'ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?????" and I realized, it wasn't him, but it sure did look like him!!!!!!

old house but different
Ok, three nights ago I had a dream that I lived back in the house I lost when we got our divorce, only it wasn't my old house, it was a double wide that was kind of trashy. I was in the house and was trying to figure out what I would have to do to fix it up, it was for sale. My youngest son was laying on the couch sleeping and I had a kerosene heater running because it was cold, the house was pretty run down and i was thinking maybe I could fix it up. I have dreamt about this house quite a few times and it has alot of bedrooms, the living room and dining room/kitchen is all open. This guy acted like he was going to come in the front door, and then he saw me in there and he ran! I freaked out and tried to run after him to see why he was trying to come in the house and why he was spying on me. he turned out to be the neighbor, I saw him at the neighbors house and I asked him if he had a cigarette, he smoked some strange brand that came in a red box but it wasn't Marlboro, it looked like marlboro packs the red ones but it wasn't marlboro. I asked him how much the house was selling for and he said 39,000 and I asked him if he thought it was worth it and he said no, no way. I woke up

the neighbor and my sons father
I dreamt last night that the neighbor was trying to look in my window and I shut the blinds and also there was a curtain that I pulled really tight so he couldn't see in. He creeps me out in real life because I live in an apt building and everytime he comes home he is looking in my window when he walks in the building. (This is hard not to do, but most people restrain from doing it)

then I had a dream about my son's father. I haven't seen him since late April. In the dream we were in this strange little town and he was working with a relative in a little store type place, with his wife. Well somehow I found him and I told him that I had gotten really mad at him because he missed our son's birthday and he hasn't been around. he made a comment about not paying support (I haven't received support checks in a month) and I told him, yeah, well you know how I am when I am mad and now its in the court and youre going to pay alot more than that (I didn't actually tell him that I went for all my back child support but he figured out what I meant) I hurried and got out of the building because I was afraid he was going to hit me or something and I was driving back to where we were staying in this very old house but I think I passed it and went too far down and into a different town. then I woke up

I don't know if anyone remembers, I had this dream back last year and
then a few days later we had some guys escape from the county jail
near here. They just caught one of them yesterday down in Kentucky,
but what is weird is I kept thinking after they escaped "they are in
kentucky" and when I went to kentucky I was even paranoid about it
but couldn't explain why i felt so strong they were. So, I think that
I was picking up on that, but something else has come out that has
been a little weird. I have been hearing the name Toby for the last
4 months or so, and I just read today that they were using "Toby" as
a last name alias! I was driving myself nuts trying to figure out
who the heck Toby was. I am still waiting to see if any of the rest
of the dream fits, like maybe hoping they might show the house they
were at or tell if their car went into the river or a creek. Why do
you think I keep picking up on these guys? I don't know them, and I
can't figure out why I would keep tapping into what is going on with
them.

They just caught the other one today..

here is the dream from last year
escaped men dream

going vegetarian
On day three of no meat. Thought I would try an experiment to see if eating no meat would increase OBE's and or dream recall. So far I don't really remember any dreams for the last three days.


On another note, they caught the two brothers who escaped from the county jail near here, the ones I thought were related to my dream back in November. They caught them both in Kentucky

A bird in the House
Last week I was at work and we were sitting upstairs at the break
room. It is just this other girl and myself that sits up there and
talks, it is sort of a dark secluded creepy place to take break but
we have been sitting up there since we both started, I think so we
won't be bothered because most people that work there don't even know
that room exists and we have been there since the company started and
long ago it used to be our break room, but has since fallen into the
question "what is up those stairs?" "oh nothing, that is the haunted
break room" *laugh*
A few weeks ago we were up there talking and the light started
flickering, then I heard three caws from a bird. I told my
friend "someone is going to die", she was like "oh no, not again"
(well, that made me laugh, cuz somebody dies every day!, but usually
the bird tells us it is someone close). Last week the bird flew into
the factory and came right up to the break room, sat on the balcony
and then flew back out of the factory. I was like oh no, its getting
closer it is going to be real soon! We went downstairs and were
talking about it and a girl overheard us. She is a little
superstitious also and she said "I saw the feather on the ground from
that bird! A bird in the house, that is not good!" I said "Its
telling us somebody is dying, it always means that" , my other friend
said "maybe it doesn't mean that this time", I said "when hasn't it
happened?" and she said "never". We left the shop.
That girl that overheard us, the next day she came to work in shock.
She had been driving home and this girl ran out into the street in
hysterics. She stopped for the girl and the girl told her her mother
was dead in the house, she had come home and found her mom dead,
suicide, so my friend and her rider went to help the girl. She said
when the paramedics came they were working on the lady and she had a
bird in the house whose cage was not latched, the bird got out and
attacked one of the paramedics. When she told me that part of the
story, I got chill bumps...I said "Do you remember saying
yesterday "A bird in the house"?