A strange long trip into the unknown
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Synchronicities
Ok, the synchs are kind of getting out of control, I met this guy named John and there is alot of strange going on surrounding that. for one we are getting along really really well and unusually well for me and it's triggering alot of memories of dreams and things that have happened. Like the Johnny soulmate dream I had several years ago, and a few years ago when my youngest son who was four at the time kept insisting that there was a 'man named John' in his room all the time. So what does that mean? have we been seeing this guys spirit coming for a while or what? We like so many things the same it isn't possible to say it is just coincidences, it is just really strange. That with the red balloon I found the other day and the dreams I have been having, something is in the air I just don't know what yet.
So the dreams..
the dreams are really vivid and feel extremely real when John is here, what does that mean? The first dream I had when I laid next to him was my ex husband in an angry torrent ripping my parents bathroom cupboard doors off the hinges. Weird. The one last night was really weird too...I dreamt I was in a trailer and there was a black man in the back room that I felt was my father except in the dream I wasn't black. In another bedroom there was a guy who looked military with a combat helmet on and he went into the bedroom and I thought that I was with him for some reason but then I went to go back in the back room to sleep or something and then all of a sudden out of the blue someone grabbed me around the neck and started dragging me, this felt so real and unexpected and I got really fucking scared! I was like "I'm not fighting don't kill me" and this guy had something to my throat and he was planning on raping me. I woke up crying, it was too real, really weird. It reminded me of the dreams I used to have about that guy who used to chase me and stick a gun to my head and I would tell him to please not shoot me because my kids needed a mom. When I got to work today Lisa said she had a similar dream last night, that there was this black man who was someones father (hmmm...) and they wanted her to marry him because he was dying , but he was rich and then it turned out he had AIDS.
Ok some of the weird coincidences between me and this John guy is we like alot of the same music, not too unusual, he told me what kind of furniture he has, black leather couch wrought iron tables and that is exactly the same kind of furniture I have been wanting to buy for the last few years. He said that he wants to buy a house and put statues of gargoyles up the driveway, and I have gargoyle statues in my house. I have been wanting a dog lately and for some reason have been thinking about a German Shepherd and also as always Rotties, and I asked him if he had a dog and he said no but he wants a Rottweiler or a german shepherd. Crazy, we are just too much alike, that could get a little scary I guess...

Precog for lottery number
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: Precognitive Dreams
This is just a comment about a dream I had the other week, I believe it was Thursday the 17th I dreamt that I found a penny with the year 1968 and my coworker was murdered in the dream as a spirit or something and the penny was split in half by my moms dryer. Well, that number hit in the daily four in the state that my coworker lives in on this thursday the 24th (Michigan). The penny split in half probably meant we were supposed to split the winnings and the dryer probably meant the number was 'hot'....UGH!dream of 1968 penny

Strange night for dreams
I doubt if I can remember all of this, last night was a strange night for dreams and there were so many and so detailed I doubt if I can write it all down. The first one I was driving around in my car in a town, I thought I was in Elkhart, but I'm not sure really where I was except that there was an Indiana street and I think a river ran through it, so that describes probably alot of towns. I drowe to this one house and then I flew out of my car, like I was astral projecting, I went inside this big old house and flew around looking for someone, there was someone sleeping on the couch that I thought might be the person I was looking for but then I hurried and left the house. This guy followed me out, I kept thinking his name was Marty or Martin or something and he asked me what I was looking for. I told him I was looking for Troy and was that his house and he told me No. I got in my car and left, then I couldn't see, like I got that weird blindness again.
Then I dreamt that I was buying this house on a lake. This house was a big brown house, it was really old. Across the street was a lake and it looked like some land with two lakes on each side. The house was huge and I was calling Lisa my friend to come check this out. But..it was haunted. It had alot of rooms and there was this one at the top of the house that was realy really haunted bad. I can't remember all of it except that the guy who was in that room finally showed himself and he was buried in the room and we dug him up somehow. He then went from looking really old and icky to looking really young, like the day he died and he took off to go look for his killer. Then we found an old lady in the bottom of the house somewhere, it was a really freaky dream and I was trying to get out of buying the house by the end of the dream and it was really far away from where I worked and stuff. It was a cool looking old house though.

Being sucked into an old house
Topic: Regular Dreams
Ok, my dreams have been sort of strange the past few days and I can't remember all of them but last night I dreamt that I was at this house I used to dream about quite a bit and I would always get sucked into the house, I'd be walking down the road and the house would suck me in like a vaccuum. so I got sucked into this house and it used to have demons in it but now it had a tanning bed, haha. I was like cool! a tanning bed! I haven't got to tan all week! There were tons of rooms and also some guys I don't know who they were. Then I was in these people's driveway and their house was pretty big and brownish or tan I think, it was a two story and the garage was sort of built into a hill. guys lived here but I don't know who they were. The house I got sucked into I was talking on the phone with Scott-Koolaid-tattoo goat head- and I asked him if he wanted to go see Motorhead with us and he said "Hell no I don't want to go see them" Ok , then the dream shifted and I was at my moms and my coworker had died, she was murdered and I think a baby was murdered with her, and I was standing in front of my moms dryer and there was blood on the floor. I looked down and saw a penny and it was cut like in half and the date was 1968. I don't know why but I thought that it should be my coworkers birth year but in the dream I knew that it wasn't.

synchs
Topic: Synchronicities
My sons father called a few days ago, I knew he would because of that stupid dream I had of him the other day and he was apologizing for being an ass like he did in the dream, but one thing strange that happened is he said that he dreamt about me several nights before and it made me wonder..if we dreamt about each other on the same night...
things to make you go hmmmm

The last week...
Mood:  smelly
Topic: Regular Dreams
Well, the last week has been sort of eventful..today is Valentines day:( and I've been thinking about Scott in prison quite a bit this whole weekend, missing him and stuff, it was funny because I wrote him a few letters this weekend and he called me Saturday, which we haven't talked on the phone for quite awhile, and today I was just thinking about him alot and moving to Oregon etc, and when I went to the post office there was a truck with Oregon license plates and then when I came home there was a red balloon sitting in my yard, which was weird, because red balloons remind me of him, so maybe he is thinking of me too. I have been reading this book by John Keel and he talks about the mind, how the world reflects beliefs or something, I don't know I will have to read it a little more before I comment on it or try to quote.

My dreams from the last week. I dreamt last week there was this man in my room and he had sandy brown hair about shoulder length and blue eyes and he felt so loving, it was like he was my soulmate and I felt really connected to him, he seemed familiar but I don't know why, then I dreamt about my sons father. I dreamt he was in my kitchen talking to me and he was crying and I was not sure why, and he kept telling me he was sorry and then the dream shifted and it was like I woke up from that dream but I remembered having it and in this false awakening dream I dreamt that my sons father knocked on the door and I said I knew you were going to show up because I just dreamt about you and everytime I dream about you you show up. Sort of weird.

The only other dream I remember really well this week is this morning I dreamt that I called in sick to work because I had a horrible headache, which I did have a horrible headache yesterday, I am starting to think it has to be the melatonin I took last week. Hopefully they will go away now.

The Nothingness

Do you often feel like you are a sponge, soaking up other people's thoughts, emotions, feelings, and confusing them for your own? Have you ever done things like painting your walls a bizarre color and then wondering why you did that because you don't actually like the color, or feeling really happy or sad and you actually stop and think that you don't really know why you are feeling this way? Have you ever bought an outift you hated when you got home, or cut your hair in a way that was bizarre for you or , it goes on and on. What if the point is nothingness and we are close to the point and we are also almost nothingness and so that we don't disappear we cling to the patterns of the other minds, floating from one to another, exploring, but constantly moving...

some other strange stuff
Mood:  not sure
Topic: Other
another thing I forgot to add is last night before I went to bed I thought I saw a blue light move real fast in my sons room , I thought he had some kind of weird flash light and was flashing it around the room but then I realized that was ridiculous and I did look to see if he had a light but he didn't. I did the John Edwards tape about meeting your guides and angels when I went to bed last night. Today at work I thought I saw a shadow flyibng around the room, some really bizarre stuff.

fresh floodlight

strange morning
Topic: Other

I dreamt last night about some democrat thing I am a republican but every one who won in the dream was democrat ....:(

The dreams last night weren't so memorable but this morning was. I got up and went to work and it was really foggy out, I mean deadly foggy out. I got in my car and headed for work and I felt really strange for some reason., I drove by this house and the light on the outside was flicking off and on, which was strange. Then I pulled up to a light and there were tons of cars there which it was 4:30 am and there is hardly ever any cars there in the morning. I turned and started driving down the street and street lights started going out as I drove under them. I drove by this sign and the letters glowed this eery red, but then I remembered that this specific sign doesn't have red letters. I started to question if I was really awake or if maybe I was still dreaming. I got to work and I wonder if maybe it was a migraine aura because I started to get a headache. I'm still either..awake or maybe still stuck in a dream that I'm not lucid in yet....

Deja hoodoo merrily merrily merrily merrily nothing is what it seems
Mood:  lazy
Topic: Precognitive Dreams
This started out as a normal dream I guess, but then again, who knows when a precognitive dream is going to be one? It seems like it should have some kind of flavor or rhyme to it to make it understood that it is indeed a trip through time or so it seems. This morning I had a series of dreams but the one I remembered the most when I woke up was I was at work although it wasn't the way my shop is set up and it was break time. Me and this girl Annette went to the snack machine and something was stuck in the machine so we shook the machine and the bag of whatever fell. Then I opened the back of the machine and there was a bunch of loose change in there. I said "Annette! Look! Lets grab all this money!" she said "No, we can't , we should leave that for someone else" . So we did, and we went and sat down at a break table. Ok, now the strange part is that I never really take break with Annette and don't get to talk to her a whole lot anymore. I used to work next to her but I think I dreamt about her because I was going to look to see if there was a Mercury retrograde and she is always affected by them.

So...Today at work, I headed for the bathroom, I got to the aisle way and Annette started going to the bathroom too. I started telling her abou t the crazy dream and we got up by the snack machine and there was a guy there shaking the machine because something was stuck. We both start laughing because it was like the dream :), then we went into the bathroom, still laughing and talking about the coincidence with the dream and the guy shaking the machine and this girl said "Wow! That machine gave me money this morning".. hrmmmmm...that was a little strange. We were really laughing by now and then we got back to our table and someone was passing around a card to put money in for a sick coworker and I though Aha, there is the part of the dream where we give money to someone else!
Dreams are just bizarre sometimes!