Choronzon, the abyss and all these strange people
Topic: Insane rambling
I still get out of my head all these strange people who are appearing in my dreams lately, I mean who the hell are they?  That guy who seemed familiar who I couldn't figure out who it was bothers me the worst, I should have been able to go lucid and test him- ask him who the hell he was- to show himself because I bet he was that demon that I dream about often just disguising himself, that's why he wouldn't talk or say anything when I asked who he was.  I should've just said 'show your true self' and that would have been that, damn lucidity, where is it when I need it.  Maybe he was Choronzon, and I've landed back in the abyss.  I wouldn't doubt it, with all the shit going on lately and the crossroads, it's like standing here in the middle figureing out which way is the best direction and feeling pulled in a hundred different directions.  I did have a an encounter with one personal demon last night and I made it through, which I don't know how the hell that happened but I left shaking my head going 'what the hell was I thinking before?" , you ever do that?  So that made me feel better, addictions are a bitch, that is all I can say...